Wednesday, January 6, 2016

January 4, 1901

Benson. 

I snuck into church this morning quietly, knowing I was late, and sat down beside Jeff. They were talking about King Nebuchadnezzar and I gave a small wave to Bree as I listened to Mr. Chris preach. 

“You’d never know they were in a roarin fire! The good Lord calmed their fears! Jesus was on a boat ride once. Y’all like boat rides?” 

“Uh huh we used to ride the boat over in Pearce that mister Joe made us,” I said as others said they liked boat rides too. 

“Well, Jesus was having a ball on this boat ride. They all fished and swam and sang and just had the best ol time! After they had their fun, Jesus got all tired and went to take a nap on the boat as they sailed on. And while He was asleep, there came a raging storm! The tiny ship was tossed and thrown all around like a toy! All the folks were freaking out! They ran and woke Jesus up, ’cause He was still snoozing through all this. HE wasn’t a bit scared.” 

“Naw, Jesus isn’t skeered of nuttin right?” Jeff asked and Mr. Chris smiled at him. 

“Jesus not scared cause he’s God,” I whispered to Jeff. 

“Ya know what Jesus did? Why He walked out on the deck of the boat and looks around… His friends were shaking in their boots and He was cool as a cucumber! Jesus smiled and pur His finger to his lips…” Mr. Chris came over to us and sat down in front of us. 

Jeff put a finger to his lips and said, “Like this.” 

“And he went… ‘shh…’” Mr. Chris said softly and I tried to hide a giggle. “And the storm stopped. The winds calmed. The rain went away And the sky cleared. My friends... With A God like that in our corner, why do we get scared at all?” 

“Cause we ain’t Him,” Jeff answered. 

“Because we ain’t Him.” Mr. Chris nodded and smiled at Jeff. “He made us in His image. We should TRY to be like Him. But we never will be. So we need to trust in Him that He will keep us warm and safe and dry when the storms rage and the fire burns and the lions want to eat us! So why are we scared?” 

“That’s why we can’t be scareed of no bad guys,” I leaned over and said to Jeff. “Cause Jesus is bigger than our fears!” I said to Mr. Chris. 
“Because the good Lord wants us to rely on Him.” Mr. Chris nodded to me. 

“I ain’t skeered of them bad guys not one bit!” Jeff made a mean face and whispered to me. 

“We’re scared cause we might fail…” Mr. Bass answered. 

“Good, Bass... That’s right. And when we fall... not if... but when we fall… We ask Him to help us up.” 

I looked over at Jeff then, feeling guilty for being so mad at Millard the other day about what he said about Jeff. I looked down with a frown, closing my eyes so no one could see how guilty I felt. 

“Everyone close your eyes…” Mr. Chris instructed. “In your mind, wee what scares you… Let your fears fill your mind for just a minute Ok… Now, repeat after me… Lord, take em away from me” 

We all repeated after him and then I heard Ma whispering something in the back of the church, but I couldn’t quite make out what she was saying. 

“Feel God lift your fears out the top of your head… OPEN YOUR EYES NOW!!” Mr. Chris said and we all opened our eyes, blinking. “Where are they? The spiders and bad guys and scary dreams and storms and stuff? Let em go, people… God’s got your back. Since before the world was anything… He…” Mr. Chris pointed up. “He had your fears in his pocket.” 

I heard Ma crying in the back of the church and went to stand beside her, holding her hand. “It okay, ma. God’s got us.” Ma squeezed my hand tighter as she wiped away the tears. 

“Let’s pray, folks…” Mr. Chris said and we all closed our eyes again. “Hey God… You know we get scared... We’re like babies sometimes. We know You can wipe our fears away in a split second… All we have to do is give em to You. Help us do just that, Lord. Because we just can’t do it by ourself, no matter how big and tough we think we are. Watch over us, guide us, protect us as we go our separate ways today and every day… Thank you for your blessings and I personally thank you for allowing us to be this far along on the new church… So... walk with us Lord. Hold our hand and make us feel safe. Thanks. Amen.” 

Ma held me close as she cried and I hugged her tight. 

“Y’all feel free to walk across the street and see how your new church is coming.” Mr. Chris smiled. 

Ma knelt down to hug me and said, “I love you, sweetheart.” 

“I love you too. You gotta see this new church. Jimmy and I preachd and sang in it last night. Right Mister Chris?” I grinned and hugged Ma. 

“Sure did Natalie.” Mr. Chris chuckled. 

Jeff came over to give Ma a letter and I wandered over to the new church with everyone else. I went up to the front and sang “Amazing Grace” like I did last night and Mr. Chris smiled. Aspen came over and I greeted Aspen as Mr. Chris talked to everyone about the new church. 

“I sure hope someone has been documentin' the building project in photo or something. This will make a good story for the Bee or Epitaph,” Miss Pet said.

“I’m gonna write bout it when it’s done Miss Pet! Mr Chris promised,” I told her. 

“Aspen, Jeffery, and some of the other kids are keeping track of the progress, Pet.” Mr. Chris insisted. 

“Oh I mean from the ground breaking from a nothin to something type article,” Miss Pet said. 

I grinned wide seeing Ma come over then and walked over to her as Mr. Chris invited people to grab a hammer or shovel and get to work. “You okay ma?” 

Ma was talkin’ with Mr. Bass about his honeymoon with Mrs. Pet so I stayed quiet, letting her talk to them. 

“I not gonna grab a shovel. I don’t wanna get my dress dirty.” I told Mr. Chris. 

I saw a horse with Miss Jade and went over to hold my hand out for it. “That’s a perty horsey. What’s its name?” I asked. 

“Thank you Natalie. Her name is Ascar,” Miss Jade said. 

“She’s real perty. Ascar’s a good name. I got a horse named Velvet. Miss Abi do you have a horse?” I asked her. 

“No Natalie, I don’t,” Miss Abi answered. 

“Um… Jeff. She’s a pony.. And black. And little like me.” 

Ma talked to Miss Abi about looking after me while she went to deal with something and I looked over as Aspen said, “I got the name for my pony.” 

“Yeah Aspen?” I grinned. “What’s it gonna be?” 
“Cocoa.” 

“That’s a good name! Cause it’s cocoa color!” 

“She doesn’t need to stay overnight or anything just if you see her in town like now I just... don’t want her wandering from town to town by herself,” Ma was saying to Miss Abi then. “Not sure how she managed to come out here on her own.” 

“Aw ma.. I wanted to go to church!” I turned to her. 

“She is a determined girl,” Miss Abi said. 

“I’ll fill you in another time when we’re more alone,” Ma said to Miss Abi. 

“I promise you I will take good care of her,” Miss Abi promised. 

“Thank you Abi. And Natalie, you listen to Miss Abi. Got it?” Ma looked at me with the look that meant I had to listen to her. 

“Yes Ma….” I sighed. I watched Ma walk away and bit my lip. 

“Natalie, she will be fine,” Miss Abi said to me then. “You will be safe with me until she returns.” 

“She mad at me.” I frowned but then hugged her tightly, trying not to think about home. I played nervously with my apron and looked around as everyone else kept talking. Mr. Chris went off to do some errands after a while and I looked around. 

Aspen came over and hugged me tightly, and I hugged her back, trying to remember Mr. Chris’ sermon. 

“Aspen, Natalie and Jeffery, are you all ready to go?” Miss Abi asked us. 

“I guess.” I nodded to her. 

“Where we goin’?” Aspen asked. 

“You kids take care of Miss Abi, ok?” Mr. Chris looked at us. 

“Yes sir, we will,” Jeff promised. 

“Let’s take a walk to town, okay?” Miss Abi suggested. “For no reason, just to go.” 

“Mr. Chris?” I asked him before he headed home. 

“Yes Natalie?” 

I walked over to him and gave him a quick hug. “Pray for ma? She real scared bout somethin’. She not been in church in a real long time but she came today.” 

“I will. I promise Natalie.” 

“Okay.” I nodded to him and turned. “Let’s go Miss Abi.” 

Miss Abi held out her hand to me and I took it as we walked back towards town. 

Goldfield. 

I saw Ma and Pa in the distance and ran over to them. Ma turned to me first and said, “Hey kiddo... I just had to talk to your pa alone for a bit. Why don’t you go play with your friends?” 

“Okay ma.” I sighed and hugged them both. 

“Yeah go have fun, and be careful sweetie.” Pa hugged me tight and kissed my head softly. 

“Sorry I had to say hi to pa.” I said and ran off to rejoin Miss Abi, Jeff and Aspen. 

“Hey Jeff?” I looked over to him as we waited for Aspen to catch up with us. 

“Yeah?” 

“I… Well I was kinda feelin bad earlier cause I heard Millard say you was dead. I was gonna get him back for it cause I didn’t want you to be hurt.” 

“Well he was just follin ya.” 

“And I didn’t like Mill lyin’ to me. Well I felt real... guilty this mornin’ at church so I.... I sorry. I jes glad you’re okay.” 

“It’s okay, I’m not dead.” 

“I sorry for how I acted yesterday.” I nodded and looked at Miss Abi. “I shouldn’t have called Millard a twat. He was just bein’ a boy.” 

“That’s okay Natalie, we all get angry sometimes,” Miss Abi said. 

“Just didn’t like the idea of somethin’ happenin’ to Jeff cause of Mr Lot,” I said.

“I understand.” 

We walked back to the town and Jeff showed us the grocery store where he helped Mr. Cas. He showed us the candy and I bought some candy for ma and pa. Miss Abi paid for me to buy a new hankie and kerchief. 

“Miss Abi I’m so glad ma went to church today. You know she used to play in church a long time ago?” I said to her then. 

“Church was good today huh?” Jeff asked. 

“Sure was.” I nodded. 

“I like the new church it is gonna be neat!” Jeff grinned. 

“I think she’ scared bout somethin. I gotta keep tellin her Jesus’ got it.” I said. 

“Look Natalie, a baby doll! Right here!” Jeff showed me. 

“Oh wow! Who made that?” I asked. 

“Mr. Cas, I think,” Jeff said. “He makes all kinds of things.” 

“Wow he’s real good! I had no idea he made stuff!” 

“Oh he makes everything he can! “Jeff said. 

After we got everything we needed, and I bought a doll to go next to the bear I got from Miss Zan, I went to the library to read Sherlock. 

*** 

Tonight, I ran over to the sheriff’s office where Pa was sitting in the chair in front of the window. “Daddy!! I’m hungry!!!!” 

“What! Huh! Hey munchkin.” Pa looked up from his chair.

“Paaaa! Were you sleepin???” I giggled. 

“Who?! Me? No, I was just inspectin my eyelids.” 

“I don’t believe you!” 

“Ok...I might have been napping a little...you caught me.” 

“I been readin’ all day. I tired and hungry. I forgot to go home to dinner cause well.... the book was too good. What are the chances ma cooked dinner?” 

“Ummm, the chances are, it’s just me and you munchkin. Ma and Jimmy were in town earlier while you were reading and I was working.” 

“So what we gonna do for food huh?” I giggled. 

“How bout we go down to the Oriental and grab some grub? I hear that got a great steak.” 

“Okay sounds good!” I took his hand and pulled him up. 

Pa groaned and stretched as he stood up. “Munchkin, your pa is gettin old. You might have to start walkin on my back.” 

“Well don’t sit for so long, daddy!” I giggled. 

“But what else can I do when no one else is around sweetiepie..run up and down the street like a wild man?” 

“Uh huh!!! Gotta get your exercise, daddy!” I giggled as we walked over to the Oriental. “Where you wanna sit daddy?” 

“Wherever you want munchkin.” Pa said and then Shira came bounding over to us, pouncing Pa happily. 

“Shira!!! Daddy Shira came for dinner!!!” I exclaimed happily. 

“What tha!! Hey Shira!!” Pa laughed and Shira licked around his face. “Does Shira want a big fat steak like me and the munchkin here?” 

“Daddy, where we gonna sit huh? Or should you eat standing up cause you sat too long?” I asked Pa. 

“Over near the window sweetie. So we can look out.” 

“Oh yeah you still workin. Daddy guess what!” I said as we sat down beside the window and he started to work on dinner. “Well actually two guess what’s….” 

“What sweetheart?” 

“Okay first of all... Ma went to church!!!” 

“Uh huh, I knew that.” 

“Three times!! She said she not gone that many times in the past few months!!” I reached over and pet Shira behind her ear, happy the dog was there. 

“Yeah, she was very happy to go today.” 

“And guess what else!” 

“What dear?” 

“I got you somethin! And ma but I gave it to her already.” 

“Oh really? What did you get me? How you want your steak munchkin?” 

“I got a new hankie for ma and I got a kerchief for you! That’s what Miss Abi called ’em.” 

“Awww, you are such a good daughter…” Pa smiled as Shira started to wander over to the kitchen, but then Pa fed her some meat from his plate. 

“Well you two looked scared or sad ’bout somethin’. So I wanted to get you somethin’. Was she scared cos more bad people not likin’ what you do?” 

“No munchkin, she has just had a lot on her mind lately, and Christmas time is tough on all of us. It’s very emotional time for all of us.” 

I sighed and looked over at him. “Are you lyin’ again pa? I know somethin’s goin’ on, remember you talked to me ’bout that.” I waved out the window to Miss Abi and waved her inside if she wanted to come in. She walked inside the saloon and I told her, “Hi Miss Abi!! Pa’s makin us dinner!” 

“No, I ain’t lying sweetie. That other has been bothering her too, but other things have been on her mind too,” Pa said and then smiled. “Howdy Miss Abi!” 

“Well alright. Ma told me that she felt so much better after church. She came to check on me in the libary after the last service ended.” 

“I just came to see how you are doing,” Miss Abi said. 

“She said she not gonna be afraid no more. Cause God’s got us in his hands.” 

“Well that’s great.” Miss Abi smiled as Shira went over to lick her hand in greeting. 

“We are doing ok. How are you Miss Abi? Hungry?” Pa asked her. 

“Miss Abi I gave them the hankie and Kerchief!” I told her.

“I hope they liked the gifts,” Miss Abi said as Pa came over with our plates and sat down. 

“Miss Abi are you hungry? You can join us.” I looked at her.

“Well I don’t want to interrupt your dinner so I will be going,” Miss Abi said. 

“Yes please join us if you like Miss Abi,” Pa invited her. 

“I have already eaten but thank you for asking. Natalie if you need me you know where to find me. Good to see you Thomas.” 

“Thanks miss Abi!” I waved and looked down at Shira who had gobbled all her food up already. “She was hungry too! And she didn’t even say grace!” I giggled. 

“Nice seeing you too ma’am.” Pa said and looked over at me. “You wanna say grace munchkin or you want me to?” 

“I wanna!” I grinned and folded my hands as Miss Abi headed out of the saloon. 

“Go ahead.” Pa smiled. 

I closed my eyes and said, “Hi God! Thank you for the food that pa made. Help it make us strong. Thank you that we could go to church today. Thanks that ma went to church again finally! She really needs you... help her to not be afraid bout whatever bad guys not likin’ her and pa… Thanks for our new family... for pa, for ma, for little brother Jimmy, and for Shira. Keep us all safe and happy and um........ amen!” 

“Amen!” Pa said and we started eating. “Through the teeth and over the gums, watch out stomach cause here it comes.” 

“You’re so silly.” I giggled and started to eat, making sure that not a single food touched the other one. Shira, meanwhile, lay down beside the table. 

“So did your ma tell you I went to church today also?” 

“She did yep! She said she never gone to church with a man before!” 

“Yeah she told me the same thing. We are going to start trying to go every Sunday.” 

“That’s a great idea, pa!” 

“She said you and her went to Mr. Chris’s service this morning...how was it?” 

“He talked bout how the people were in the fire but they didn’t get burned up. And how Jesus made everyone calm at the storm on the boat.” 

I put an onion on my lap and then put it on the floor, hoping Pa didn’t notice. Shira pushed the onion away though and gave me a look that said ‘are you kidding me?’ Pa took a bit of his onion and made a face, spitting the onions out into a napkin. 

“Well if ya don’t like onions pa why’d ya make em?” I blinked at him. 

“I do like onions, it’s just these I think may have turned.” He laughed and flicked a potato at me playfully. 

“Uh huh.... Hey!! If ma were here she’d say we weren’t s’posed to play with our food!!” 

“Hey! I wont tell her if you don’t!” Pa flung a potato at Shira and chuckled. Shira jumped up and ate the potato happily. 

“We gonna go to storytime?” I asked Pa. 

Pa twisted his arm and laughed. “Well since you twisted my arm, I guess we can go.” 

“Yay!” I giggled, eating my steak last. “Hey pa did you get the bee today?” 

“Yeah sure did, but haven’t had time to read it yet.” 

“Cause you were too busy nappin’?” I Pouted. 

“Hey! You and Jimmy take naps, why can’t I?” 

“Not while we’re in school or writin’ and workin’! We’d get whipped for that!” 

“Well I wasn’t working, I was ummm street watching.” 

“Ain’t that what you do when you’re workin’?” I asked, letting some steak fall for Shira. 

“Well yeah I guess so...but who is gonna whoop me for sleeping?” 

“Uh… Maybe ma” 

“Okay!” Pa smiled. 

“Oh yeah I said I was sorry to Jeff bout bein all upset at Millard yesterday. Cause Millard said Jeff died and he was bein’ a twat. I told him I just not want anything bad to happen to him cause of Mister Lot.” 

“I’m glad sweetie. Hey! Don’t use that word!” 

“Why? That’s what he was bein’!” I gasped. 

“Cause it’s not a nice word to call people.” 

“What word can I use? Brat? Pain in the butt? Jerkface?” 

“Yes, brat is ok. The other is often used for women, and it’s very wrong.” 

“We should go to the orphanage, daddy,” I said as we finished our dinner. 

“Yep, I guess you are right munchkin.” Pa stood and we fed the rest of our food to Shira as we cleaned up our meals. 

We walked over to the orphanage and Shira followed close. I told myself to be nice to Millard when I saw him and I asked, “I brought my pa and Shira, is that okay?” 

“Sure, Natalie,” Mr. Chris said. 

“Ohhh a dog, now we can try that recipe in the Bee,” Millard said. 

I shot Millard another glare as Shira went to greet Jeff. “See???? He’s bein a…” I stopped myself. 

“What?” Millard asked innocently. 

“I not sittin beside Mill.” I folded my arms across my chest. I looked over at Mr. Chris and remembered church, sighing. “My dog ain’t food.” I glared at Mill. I gave Pa an ‘I told you so’ look as I went to sit beside Jeff. 

“The recipe said any dog is fine,” Mill said. 

“Mill, stop bein a…” I started. 

“Natalie the rug would be more comfortable,” Miss Abi told me. 

“Yeah but this is a nice doggy,” Jeff said. 

“Mr Chris is your story about forgivin twats?” I finally asked. “Cause I ain’t doin it. Not till he says sorry.” 

“No, umm... forgiving what?” Mr. Chris looked at me with surprise as I pet Shira protectively. 

“Natalie that is not a good word,” Miss Abi told me. 

“Well first he said the boy I... my friend was dead... Now he say my dog’s food… So he’s a brat.” I hid my face against Shira’s fur, upset. 

“Millard I feel you should apologize to Natalie,” Miss Abi ordered. 

Millard pulled out a copy of the Bee and cleared his throat, reading, “Lemongrass Dog. Ingredients: 2 lbs dog meat... Acquire two pounds of dog meat. Try to ensure that it is from a medium-sized dog. The breed does not matter, unless you have certain preferences.” 

“Millard, hush,” Miss Abi ordered. 

Tears started to form and I hid against Shira closer as she licked my face. “Jeff, tell him to stop.” 

Millard put the paper away and said, “There’s a recipe for cat too. But I reckon cats is too stringy.”

“Sorry mister Chris. Millard…” 

“If you cannot behave you can go to the boys room and miss the story,” Miss Abi told Mill. 

“Yes Miss Abi,” Millard huffed. 

Mr. Lot came over with a big rug in his hands and he said he wanted to just say hi. Millard asked if there was going to be a recipe in the Bee next week for cooking people and Miss Abi yelled, “Millard STOP IT NOW!” 

“Millard Dewey!! We ain’t cannibals!” 

“What?? I didn’t say WE would cook anybody!” Millard protested. 

“No one gonna cook no human,” Jeff insisted. 

“Well you’re gonna show em how by puttin in a recipe. Might as well jes do it yerself. Jes as bad.” 

“Ohhh can I?” Millard asked. 

“Chris please please start the story,” Miss Abi insisted to him. 

“I seen a book at the library that said how some savages someplace eat folks,” Millard said. 

“Yeah and we ain’t cannibals! So stop it!” I said. 

“Yes Ma’am,” Mr. Chris cleared his throat as Mr. Lot walked out of the orphanage with the rug in his hands. 

“Millard I said stop it and I mean it. One more word and you are going to your room,” Miss Abi ordered and Millard finally clammed up. 

“I have a couple of short stories for you all tonight. We’ll start with William Wobbles McGreet & His Ten Bowls of Wheat,” Mr. Chris started. 

“William Wobbles?” I blinked. 

“William Wobbles McGreet measured 3.4 feet, and yet he felt strong and tall and not at all small, his confidence you could not beat. Young William McGreet would every day eat ten bowlfuls of shredded, dry wheat and he felt that this habit was the reason, dangnabit, for his confident view of himself. At breakfast the table, with Will very able, three bowls of the wheat were expertly arranged. Though clearly deranged, his father would muse, Will ate fast with his hands, no spoon would he use, till the bowls were as clean as shined shoes. His sister Rebecca, who lived in Tribeca, would visit from school every now and again and she’d watch all agape like a shocked and stunned ape at her dear younger brother consume one bowl then another of dry-as-a-bone, tasty-as-Styrofoam grated, minced, chopped, destroyed shredded wheat.” 

“He ate wheat with his hands.” Jeff laughed. 

“That’s a lotta wheat,” I muttered. 

“Sure is,” Jeff agreed. 

Mr. Chris grinned and adjusted his glasses. “‘I love this!’ Will cried, very most satisfied, as he wiped his mouth clean with his sleeve. ‘I can’t wait till lunch when I’ll stuff me a bunch of this joyous wheat stuff down my throat,’ Will did gloat. ‘And for dinner,’ he said with a tilt of his head, ‘I’ll have three more big bowls of it, and I’ll sleep through the night ’cause my tummy’s just right and I’ll wake the next day oh-so-ready to say, “Mommie, I’ll have me some yum-yum good wheat!”’ Mrs. Greta McGreet turned white as a sheet as she went through the grocery bills. ‘Four hundred dollars just on shredded wheat?! For the love of Sweet Pete, what are we to do with this Will wackadoo?’ she asked of her husband, whose name was Ballou.” 

I knew I was going to get spanked when I got home and tried to focus on the story. “You think they greeted people with wheat Jeff? Cause they called McGreet?” I asked. 

“‘What harm can it do?’ asked kind sir Ballou. ‘It’s healthy, and though we’re not wealthy, we can afford to keep the wheat business in business ’cause he doesn’t like truffles or potato-chip ruffles, he hates filet mignon and detests Grey Poupon, New England clam chowder and milk chocolate powder he turns up his nose to it all; so let him have this, yes, it goes on for days but it’s surely a faze, these silly displays are just part of plain growing up.’” 

“Naw and ain’t nobody else in Tombstone a person eater,” Jeff said. 

“But this went on for months, this consistent exhibit till one day it all stopped at once. William’s Mommie had read in Mommie Magazine that abnormal behavior that goes on too long should be looked at and poked at and thought of and taught of and stifled and stopped, if you please, then and there. So, in the midst of his play, his Mommie one day decided to say, ‘Now Willy McGreet, I don’t think it’s sweet to eat shredded wheat ten times every day without one drop of milk.’ She threw all the wheat out and, boy, did he pout and he stomped his feet hard on the ground.” 

“Well why he like wheat so much anyways?” Jeff asked. 

“I have no idea!” Mr. Chris laughed. 

“Maybe it keep him regular.” Pa smiled. 

“‘Fine, be that way,’ was all Will could say,” Mr. Chris went on. “‘if milk’s what you think I should drink then I’ll drink ten bowls of that like a cat till I’m fittingly fat and my skin turns as white as a bunny. Laugh, I don’t care if you think that it’s funny, I’ll drink nothing but milk from now on!’” 

“He might turn into a cow,” Millard said and we giggled. 

“And so was the story of William Wobbles McGreet & His Ten Bowls of Wheat,” Mr. Chris said. 

“That’s it???” I blinked and everyone laughed. 

“That’s funny.” Jeff laughed. “He should eat cookies only.” 
“Ok. Next we have one especially for Jeffery,” Mr. Chris said. 

“It’s about a Pony Express Rider.” Mr. Chris nodded. “Ballad of Johnny O’Dell. Wild are the tales of the Pony Express and most of them are true if I don’t miss my guess. But wildest of all tales that they tell is that of fearless young Johnny O’Dell. Johnny was little, but he was a man
whom none could outride, outshoot or outplan. Ride, he could ride anything that could run and could outdo any man with a gun. Back in those days there were men in the West and Johnny O’Dell was as good as the best. Only the bravest could carry the mail through terrible dangers that haunted the trail.” 

“Yeah that’s me. I got my bb gun,” Jeff said. 

“Dangers there were on the night I describe, for Johnny encountered an Indian tribe. Blackie, his horse, gave a new burst of speed. No Indian pinto could equal that steed. Bullets and arrows whizzed over his head as into the foe and right through them he sped. Outlaws had raided the station ahead the horses were stolen, his partner was dead. Onward went Johnny over the trail. For such was the life when you carry the mail rivers they forded for bridges there were none while crossing one stream he was stopped by a gun. ‘Halt!’ cried a man on the bank of the creek- As together they fired by the light of the sun. Still lay the stranger whom Johnny had met, for all that I know he is lying there yet. So you see, Johnny was a quick draw with his gun! Onward went Johnny into the West, as a spot of crimson appeared on his vest. Together they continued their hazardous ride, the powerful horse with the brave man astride.” 

“Yay!” Jeff exclaimed. 

“Into the town of Red Gulch did they go, as blotches of blood marked their way through the snow. This was the end of the perilous trail through bullets, and arrows; through blizzards and hail. Johnny dismounted and cried with a wail, ‘Oh, Darn it all, I’ve forgotten the mail!’” 

“Bud did he die?” Jeff asked as everyone laughed. 

“Nope. He just forgot his mailbag and went through all that!” Mr. Chris said. 

“Welp I not forgot mine,” Jeff said. 

“I think you’re a lot better than poor Johnny O’Dell was. Ok... One more quick one,” Mr. Chris went on. with another story. “Now this last one is the story of Barnabas and Sebastian. This is a true story. An old man named Barnabas lived with his dog in a house a big old house his grandfather had built long ago. Barnabas used to own a store in town, but now he was retired and spent his days panning for gold in nearby streams hoping to some day strike it rich. The dog was a big wolfhound named Sebastian and Barnabas had raised him from a pup he found years ago. Every morning Barnabas went out to pan for gold and Sebastian stayed behind and guarded their house. One morning, as Barnabas was dumping out a dead pan of gravel, he got the feeling that something was wrong at home.” 

I felt myself starting to get sleepy as Mr. Chris read and I looked at Pa. “You ready for bed munchkin?” Pa whispered to me and I nodded, not wanting to be rude to Mr. Chris. 

“Goodnight,” Mr. Chris mouthed to us and we whispered goodnight back as we walked outside quietly. 

We heard Mr. Lot talking and Pa called shrugged and led me back to the house. 

Bisbee. 

Pa tucked me into bed and I was still furious at Millard and didn’t want to forgive him. I sat up straight, unable to sleep, and looked over at Pa. “Why’s he gotta be so mean?” 

Pa pet Shira and kissed my forehead. “What do you mean?” 

“First he said that Jeff was dead... then he goes on ’bout how Shira’s gonna be food. Then ’bout how people are gonna be food. I don’t like him and he’s mean.”

“Natalie, that’s just how Millard is.. He is a boy and loves to pick on girls.” 

“But why???” 

“Cause he has nothing else better to do..you just have to learn to ignore him.” 

“Well then give him somethin better to do.” I sighed. 

“Natalie, just ignore him. He does it because he knows it makes you mad. If you ignore him, then he will stop.” 

“Is that why you and ma not gonna be scared no more? Cause if you ignore the bad guys they’ll stop?” 

“No sweetie...we aren’t going to be afraid anymore, because God is in control and loves all of us. Good will always win in the end. Gods loves you too.” 

“I know. So I gonna win over Millard.” I nodded and smiled, satisfied. 

Pa rolled his eyes, but smiled. “Yes you will munchkin. Now go to sleep, and have sweet dreams.” I giggled and hugged him before curling up under the covers. “Good night munchkin. I love you very much.” 

“I love you too pa,” I said as I fell asleep. 

Monday, January 4, 2016

January 3, 1901

Tombstone. 

I was sitting in front of the school when Aspen came over and I asked her if she was coming to school with me. She told me how her pa owned three universities and taught her things. I told her about my parents and the orphanage I went to in Boston and how awful it was. 

“Did you see him last night? Jeff?” I asked her. 

“Yes he had a date with Molly.” 

“He did?? Figures.” I looked down. 

“Boys smell funny anyway.” 

“Well forget him. ’cept I can’t… He runs that paper so well and he’s so cute and…” I sighed and looked down. “Don’t guess he asked about me… Probably don’t even miss me. Guess he just a boy that runs the paper.” 

“I’m sorry I did not talk to him much. He is one of my best buddies. He’s pretty smart but not so smart sometimes.” 

“Now I just gotta stop dreamin’ about him then I’ll be okay. I had another dream last night.” 

“Wow Nat you got it bad.” 

I nodded and said, “I dreamt he was really dead. It was awful. I hardly slept.” 

“Well, you know he ain’t.”
“I know but…” 

“Mebbe you should talk to him and tell him how you feel.” She smiled softly. 

“Nah... I couldn’t. That’d be so embarrassing. And he already likes Molly.” 

“My ma always said if ya got something to say, you need to say it you’ll just feel worse if you hold it back.”
“But…” I sighed. “What if he treats me weird after it? like at the paper? Or at school?” 

“I dunno. I ain’t sure what is right.” 
“I’d hardly be able to look at him. I’m hardly able to look at him now though so that ain’t much different. I just hope he’ll be at school .Then I’m gonna ride around with payroll again.” 

“You ride with them?” 

“Sometimes. In the back so I don’t get in the way. If somethin’ happens I go into the clinic or the other buildings to watch.” 

“Gosh… Last couple weeks, Jeff has been goin’ to school at night.” 

“Last time I went I hid in the room beside the bank while the bad guys shot at the good guys. It was a real good article! This week I wrote one ’bout New Year’s Eve.” 

“You’re a good writer.” Aspen nodded. “An asset to the Bee for sure.” 

“What do you like to do for fun? You write good too.” 

“I do?” 

“Uh huh. Don’t you got stuff in there sometimes?” 

We talked about what she did for fun and about the paper and how Miss Paisley reminded me of my ma. We went inside the school and sat down as we waited for the teacher and other students to arrive. We kept talking and it was fun to talk to her about stuff alone for a while. Soria came in and took a seat, and we talked about our parents with her. We talked about how Miss Abi was a great matron and how she was a real good cook. We talked about how old we were and I went over to feed Pretty Bird as we kept talking about our families. 

Mr. Finesmith came promptly at 8 o’clock and asked where we all were. “Mr Finesmith we’re in here!” I called out to him. 

“My students are normally lined up at the door.” Mr. Finesmith said and we all went outside to line up. “Ahh…. Much better. Much much Better.” 

“Hi Mister Finsemith! How are you, Sir?” I grinned. 

“Hi Mr Finesmile dya remember me I’m Aspen,” Aspen said. 

“Hmmm, I’m not sure Aspen. Have we met?” Mr. Finesmith asked as Little Dove ran over to the school. 

“And Mister Finesmith, this here’s Soria. And Little Dove,” I told him. 

“Alright, in we go!” Mr. Finesmith said and we headed inside as he rang the bell. He asked who would feed the bird and I told him I already did. He asked why the blanket was over the cage, and I told him that I had already fed it and closed the cage. Miss Soria said she saw me feed the bird and Aspen said she’d feed it. I looked down and kicked the thing under my feet, feeling like everything I did wasn’t good enough. I folded my arms across my chest and looked down at my notebook, without looking up. 

We went over etiquette and repeated Mr. Finesmith and Aspen and I asked about what we do when Miss Abi tells us things that aren’t true, and how we need to never say ‘no’ to Miss Abi. I asked questions but Mr. Finesmith didn’t answer so I just started to draw in my notebook as he asked about everyone’s Christmas. 

“The 5th, in the evening.. do we remember who is coming?” Mr. Finesmith asked, and when no one could remember he said, “On the night of The 5th, before the Feast of Epiphany... will come .. the Befana!” 

“Who in good graces is the Befana, Sir?” I asked. 

“You mean a banana, sir?” Soria asked. 

“I love when the children take a random word and attempt to rhyme it with some thing ridiculous.” Mr. Finesmith started to pull out his easel and showed a picture of a lady as he started to laugh. “For those of you that have not met her… May I introduce to you the beautiful Befana?”

“Is she a butterfly?” I asked, looking around. Other students appeared to be just as confused. 

“Befana visits all the children on the eve of the Feast of the Epiphany to fill their socks with candy and presents if they are good or a lump of coal or dark candy if they are bad. In many poorer parts of Italy and in particular rural Sicily, a stick in a stocking was placed instead of coal. Being a good housekeeper, many say she will sweep the floor before she leaves. To some the sweeping meant the sweeping away of the problems of the year.  The child’s family typically leaves a small glass of wine and a plate with a few morsels of food, often regional or local, for the Befana.” 

“Um… Mr. Finesmith?” I raised a hand. 

“She is usually portrayed as an old lady riding a broomstick through the air wearing a black shawl and is covered in soot because she enters the children’s houses through the chimney. She is often smiling and carries a bag or hamper filled with candy, gifts, or both.” 

“Sounds a lot like the female version of Santa Clause,” I said to Aspen. 

“And now… here’s why… 

Christian legend had it that Befana was approached by the biblical magi, also known as the Three Wise Men (or the three kings) a few days before the birth of the Infant Jesus. They asked for directions to where the Son of God was, as they had seen his star in the sky, but she did not know. She provided them with shelter for a night, as she was considered the best housekeeper in the village, with the most pleasant home. The magi invited her to join them on the journey to find the baby Jesus, but she declined, stating she was too busy with her housework.” 

“And a witchiepoo…” Little Dove said and I nodded to her. 

“Later, La Befana had a change of heart, and tried to search out the astrologers and Jesus. That night she was not able to find them, so to this day, La Befana is searching for the little baby.” 

“But the star…” I muttered. 

“She don’t know he growed all ups?” Little Dove asked. 

“She searched and searched for Baby Jesus, but never found him. Befana still searches today, after all these centuries. On the eve of the Epiphany, Befana comes to a house where there is a child and leaves a gift. Although she has been unsuccessful in her search, she still leaves gifts for good young children because the Christ Child can be found in all children. And so children… I hope you will tidy up your bedrooms in preparation for Befana!”

“Only special people could see the star and the baby Jesus... only those who truly believed Nat,” Aspen whispered to me. 

“But ma said the wise men followed the star to baby Jesus,” I whispered back to her. 

“Yes, but not everyone could see the star only true believers,” Aspen whispered back. 

“Thank you dear children… Class is dismissed,” Mr. Finesmith said then. 

“That’s it?” I blinked, looking around confused. “But Mister Finesmith… Did we do somethin’ wrong?” I looked down at my desk. 

“Are we staying?” Soria asked, looking around. 

“Dat was weird,” Little Dove blinked. 

“Guess we gotta go home.” I said and we all walked out of the school. 

“Bye bye Aspen and Nats, you gonna be arounds tomorrow?” 
“That was just weird. Yeah probably.” 

“Bye bye Little Dove. It’s good to see ya again,” aspen said. 

“Is goods ta see you too!” Little Dove said and waved as we all headed home. 

*** 

I walked down the street a while later and waved to Aspen. “Hiya! I goin’ to follow the cavalry again! I had to go home and get my horse.” 

“Oooh! I was watchin them!” 

I rode off to find the soldiers as they were heading from Goldfield to Pearce. Nothing too exciting was going on though and I went back to Aspen in Tombstone. 

“I guess no ne attacked em.” 

“That’s good.” 

“Nat where can i get a horse that I don’t have to feed? I have my willow but she has to be fed and I ain’t got a place to keep her no more.” 

“Um I found mine outta town somewhere. I don’t remember where. I gonna go to the fort and make sure everything was okay.” 

I rode over to the fort and hopped off my horse, knocking on the big door. Mr. Wedge called back and asked who was at the door and I told him it was me, so he opened the big gate. 

“Hi Mister Wedge! I was followin’ but I didn’t see nothin bad happen on payroll. Everything safe?” 

“Yes… All is well!” 

“That’s great.” 

“Yes.” 

“Don’t give me much to write ’bout but that’s good.” I giggled. “School was weird.” 

“Aww… gosh darn!” 

“Mr Finesmith taught bout La Bafana. Then he just... poofed and went outside sayin class was dismissed.” 

“That’s it?!” 

“Yeah that’s it.” 

“Did you know that Rikki can snipe me out from that building over there?” He asked, pointing behind me. 

“Wow, really? That far away?” 

“She got Zabe and Shane once… great shots.” He tried to smile. 

“Wow that ain’t good. Well um... I just wanted to come and make sure you guys was okay.” 

“Nope… ’specially if you’re the one gettin holes in ya. Well thank you.” He chuckled a bit. 

“I’ll see you later Mister Wedge!” 

“Ok Nat, be safe out there,” Mr. Wedge said and I waved as I rode off. 

*** 

I rode into town an hour later and waved to Mr. Chris in front of the saloon.

“Don’t you look pretty today,” he greeted me. 

“Thanks Mister Chris. I got this dress over Christmas.” I smiled. 

“Very fancy!” 

“I got it in green too! I been tryin to decide if I wanna put my hair up in a different style but I really like this look and no one else is doin’ it.” 

“Well, you’re a fashion plate and a trend setter.  Me and some fellas have been working on the new church.” 

“You look nice too Mister Chris. Oh yeah? How’s it goin’? Almost done?” 

“I look like I been drug behind a stage for a dozen miles!” He laughed and smiled big. “It’s getting close.” 

“I wanna write ’bout it when it’s done. You’ll tell me right?” 

“Well of course! If you get toward Benson, give it a look.” 

“So I got a few series I gonna do in the paper now. The faces of tombstone... where I interview people… A series about payroll… And a series about what we learn in school!” 

“Fashion plate, trend setter, and journalist!”

“And anything else random that comes up.” I grinned. “Think that’s enough to keep me busy Mister Chris?” 

“Maybe…” He looked seriously at me. 

I giggled and said, “Now I gotta decide where I’m gonna sit and write about school this morning..” I waved and headed off to write about school. 

*** 

Tonight, me and Jimmy wandered around and found a really big church that we explored. We found Mr. Chris and Aspen and Miss Abi back in Tombstone and talked to them for a while about how we usually spend more time out of Tombstone cause it was safer. Aspen went off to the evening class. We went to see the new church being built in Benson and I started singing Amazing Grace before Mr. Chris had to go to bed. I ran over to hug my brother and we headed home. 

Sunday, January 3, 2016

January 2, 1901

Tombstone. 

I ran into town tonight looking for Jeff, calling his name. I ran to knock on the orphanage door and finally opened the door and walked in. “I sorry if I interrupting…” 

Aspen and Miss Abi greeted me and asked if I was okay. “Have you guys seen Jeff?” I asked, but neither of them had. “Danged boy… I heard Lot yellin’ at him last night. And some other guy.” 

“Yellin at Jeff?” Aspen asked. 

“And I guess he was askin him to do somethin for him but I dunno what. And then… I called for Jeff later when the yellin’ was done and…” I swallowed hard and looked at Misss Abi. “Millard said he was dead. He not dead, is he? He can’t be.” 

“That’s malarky,” Aspen commented. 

“Said who was dead?” Miss Abi asked. 

“Millard... he called out ‘Jeff’s dead’.” 

“I talked to Jeffery last night and he was fine,” Aspen said. 

I sighed with relief and looked around. “I’m gonna git Millard. Where’s his bed?” 

“You cannot believe anything that Millard says,” Miss Abi told me. 

“But… Aspen I dunno what I gonna do but… I gonna do somethin’. And he not gonna like it.” 

“About what Natalie?” Aspen asked. 

“Not sure which one is his,” Miss Abi said. 

“It’s the one with the quilt on it,” Aspen said. 

“I’ll put somethin’ in it. I don’t care. He not gonna lie. It ain’t good.” 

“Why are ya mad at Jeff?” Aspen asked. 

“At Mill!” I said and saw Miss Abi come out of the bedrooms, so I ran in. I looked around and asked, “Which quilt?” 

“All his stuff is still on his bed. Come on out, Natalie,” Miss Abi told me.

“But… He’s a cantankerous brat!! And I’m gonna get him! I’ll get Jimmy to... somethin’.” I walked out with a sigh back into the lobby. 

“Who Millard?” Aspen asked. “Well, gittin even ain’t gonna help things any.. Trust me.” 

“Well let’s go see if we can find out anything,” Miss Abi said. 

“Why not?” I asked, trying the boy’s door again. “Would make me feel better and make him feel bad for lyin’” 

“It just makes it werse,” Aspen said. 

“Then he’ll say he’s sorry. And if he don’t I’ll keep doin’ it Till he does.” 

“Don’t count on a sorry. I just ignore him.” 

“You two come with me we will see what we can find out,” Miss Abi said then. 

“Yes miss Abi,” I said. “I not gonna ignore him. He a cantankerous fool and he not gettin’ away with it!” 

We walked outside and I shouted, “Millard Dewey come out of hiding!!!” 

“I find it odd Jeff ain’t here yet,” Aspen said. 

“See?” I nodded to Aspen with worry.

“MISS PAISLEY ARE YOU THERE?” Miss Abi shouted as we neared Annie’s. 

“I saw her at the oriental. They playin games or dancin or somethin,” I said. 

“Kristoff?” Miss Abi asked the marshal who was leaning against the post in front of the sheriff’s office. 

“He drunk or sleepin miss Abi. Wouldn’t answer me neither,” I told her. 

“I see that now.” 

We went to the Oriental and asked Miss Paisley if she’d seen Jeff, but she hadn’t seen him since yesterday. 

“I’m sure he fine just... Danged cantakerous millard ain’t gonna be,” I muttered. “Miss Abi I gonna go back outside. I forgot I not s’posed to go in there but I was with Miss Abi,” I told Aspen and she nodded. 

“Mildew needs a good lesson,” Aspen said. 

“I’m gonna git him for this. If it’s the last thing I do.” 

“I was gonna leave cause of him… But decided I have other friends too.” 

“You were? Cause of Mill?” 

“Yes but its settled pretty much now. I just ignore him.” 

I folded my arms across my chest and said, “I kinda sorta um… Told my pa that I…” I looked down. 

“What?” Aspen looked confused. 

“Had a dream bout Jeff,” I whispered to Aspen. “So if he’s hurt…” 

“Oh. You can’t hurt someone thru a dream Natalie.” 

“Nooooo that’s not what I mean. I had a dream bout me and Jeff. We were uh…” I shifted in my seat and she giggled. “So if he hurt… Or in trouble.. I gonna skin Millard’s hide.” 

“Aww I’m sure he’s fine. I didn’t know you like Jeffery that way.” 

“It a secret,” I said and put a finger to my lips as Mr. and Mrs. Starling came over. Miss Abi came over too and Mr. Jimmi asked what we were up to today. Miss Abi said that we were trying to find Jeff. 

“I’m gonna skin Millard’s hide,” I muttered. 

“I think Millard was trying to get a rise out of you Nat.” 

“Well I’m gonna get a rise out of him.” I kicked a stone. 

We continued to talk and Mr. Jimmi talked about Mr. Lot using a trough for gardening and I said something under my breath. Mr. Jimmi said he hoped I was saying something good about Mr. Lot and Aspen promised me that Mr. Lot and Jeff were good friends. 

“They better be. Cause if I find out they not…" 
“My girls are very defensive of the boys at the orphanage,” Miss Abi explained. 

“Mr Lot has a good heart, not always in the right place at the right time, but its a good heart all the same,” Mr. Jimmi promised. 

“And if he really was just yellin at him in a good way last night…” I said. 

“Well, if so we’ll have to push them in the water trough,” Aspen suggested. 

“Yeah we will, Aspen Like we gonna do to Mill.” 

“Mr. Lot said I talk too much,” Aspen said. 

“No you don’t.” Miss Abi shook her head. 

“Does he mean talking lots of words or talking out of turn?” Mr. Jimmi asked. 

“He said kids shud be seen and not heard and looked right at me,” Aspen said. 

“Push him in the lake next time, Aspen,” I told her. 

“But... we was teasin him purty bad that day too.” 

“Not nice of him to talk to ya like that.” 

“Children should talk when spoken to and not interrupt elders,” Mr. Jimmi said. “You know he is a lawyer?” 

“And an outlaw,” I muttered and avoided eye contact with Mr. Jimmi. 

“Yes, he is a lawyer and a Judge. he knows what he is talking about. You think a little more about him now Aspen?” 

“I don’t think he likes kids much,” Miss Abi said. 

“I didn’t think nothin’ bad about him Sir,” Aspen said. 

I sighed, not wanting to hear about Mr. Lot. I walked off to the orphanage and sat down on the bench near the pond, throwing a rock into the water. I felt a bit better as the loud noise was made and stared into the water. 

Aspen and Miss Abi came over and Aspen sat down next to me, patting my back. I blinked at the contact and looked over to them. 
“We will get to the bottom of it Nat,” Miss Abi promised. 

“I don’t like bein toyed with, Miss Abi. Or lied to. ’specially not about a boy I ... am friends with..” 

“I know honey.” 

“Boys will say things sometimes,” Aspen said. 

“I know Mr Lot’s a bad guy,” I said. 

“I don’t like being around people who obviously don’t like kids either,” Miss Abi said. “I would much rather be around you kids.” 

“Pa told me to watch out for him and stay away. And about the other bad people that I not s’posed to talk to. Cause he don’t want us to get hurt.” 

“Yes be careful around Lot.” 

“So I won’t sit there and let mister Jimmi go on bout how good he is. I ain’t gonna hear it. He’s a liar too, just like mister Lot, if he’s sayin Lot’s a good person.” 

“Well Jimmi may be as bad a Lot.” 

I grinned as Miss Abi agreed and said, “Miss Abi.. What do they think, that we just stupid? Not s’posed to think for ourselves? I’m gonna be a teenager soon, ya know…” 

“Lot tends to try to get you kids to do things you are not supposed to do.” 

“See? And that’s what I scared he was doin to Jeff.” 

“You have a mind of your own and your own ideas and thoughts.” 

“Cause he was sayin how he was a good boy. For doin whatever he said… And then Mill said he was dead. So I put it together.” 

“I don’t trust him.” 

“Well now I don’t trust Jimmi no more either.” I sighed. 

“I don’t know Jimmi well enough to trust him or not trust him.” 

“I think you’re blowin it all outta proportion,” Aspen said. 
“I don’t think so. Miss Abi agrees,” I said. 

“I don’t think Lot is a bad person.. and I ain’t a liar.. and I know from what my pa said is boys will be boys,” Aspen said. 

“So you sayin my pa’s a liar?” I asked. 

“No, not at all.” 

“Nat different people have different opinions of Lot. That is all she meant,” Miss Abi said. 

“I didn’t see where you said anythin about your pa,” Aspen said. 

“I said my pa warned me ’bout stayin ’ away from Lot. And other people in his club. Cause they not good people,” I told them. 

“Oh, I missed that. Sorry.” 

“It okay. I just mad. Not at you.” 

“I understand.” 

“Aspen she is not mad at you,” Miss Abi said. “She is mad about what happened last night.” 

“I understand that too… But I talked to Jeffery last night and nothin was said about anything being wrong.” She looked at Miss Abi and said, “And he woulda told me.” 

“Well that’s good then,” I said. “Mill’s gonna get his cantankerous tushy whopped then.” 

“I hope I’m there to see that.” Aspen giggled. 

“I want to watch.” Miss Abi giggled too. 

“I will take photos.” 

“We’ll put it in the Bee.” 

“Yeah! that will really piss him off!” Aspen said and covered her mouth. 

“Then we will just have to piss him off.” Miss Abi said and handed Aspen two pennies. “You can put those in the jar for both of us.” 

“And here I was gonna say tushy.” I giggled as Aspen ran into the orphanage to put the pennies in the jar. “Hey Miss Abi? Thanks for bein so good with us kids.” 

“I think Jeffery will be at the party tonight,” Miss Abi said then. 

“Oh yeah, there’s a party ain’t there?” 

We talked about the dance and what we were going to wear for it and I said I was going to sit and plan my revenge on Millard. They went into the orphanage and I went down the street, finding Mr. Chris. I leaned against him, having a bad and frustrating day. Mr. Chris was talking with Mr. Jy and Miss Jess and I waited until they were quiet for a while. 

“Mr Chris can I ask you a question?” I looked at him. 

“Sure you can.” 

“Is Mr Jimmi and Mr Lot good guys?” 

“Depends on your definition of ‘good’.” Mr. Chris chuckled. 

“Are they good people? Like… Do they do crimes and stuff and lie…?” 

“Lot you have to be careful. He is both,” Mr. Jy said. 

“Pa said I had to be careful around Lot. He said that Lot was a bad guy and told me bout all his friends. But then last night I heard him yellin at Jeffrey and tellin him to do somethin.” 

“Lot can be good at times.” 

“And then… When I was yellin for Jeff, Mill yelled back that he was dead. Now I know he weren’t cause Aspen seen him since. But… Then today…” 

“Don’t let him hear you saying that he is good,” Miss Jess told me. 

“I was mutterin about Mr Lot around Mr Jimmi… And Mr Jimmi said that Mr Lot had a good heart underneath it all and was a good person. So he make my pa sound like a liar.” 

“You see my guns Nat?” Mr. Jy asked and I nodded. “Lot made them for me.”

“He did?” 

“Yes, he is good.” 

“Good?? But…” I looked around, confused. 

"He can be both. I know it is confusing but he does both bad and good things.” 

“But then how I know who to trust?” 

“You have to ask others, like now.” 

“Nat let me explain it to you, Mr Lot can be good when it benefits him or his friends, but don’t trust him cause he can turn on you in the blink of an eye,” Miss Jess explained. 

“Well and Pa says that I gotta be careful round him too.” I nodded to Miss Jess. 

“Yes, you have to be careful,” Mr. Jy agreed. 

“Best advice I can give is hope for the best in people, but prepare for the worst,” Mr. Chris advised. 

“Most the time Mr jimmi is a good and decent man but he listens to the bad guys sometimes and lets them sway his decisions,” Miss Jess said. “Does that help?” 

I nodded to her and a woman came over saying that she could help out in the clinic if she was needed. Miss talked with her about being a doctor and then said, “And Miss Natalie comes in and observes when it is not to busy.”

“Well not as much anymore,” I told her. “I work for the Bee now. It keeps me busy too.” 

“That is a good thing too.” 

“Uh huh. I wrote a thing bout New Years Eve. And got pictures. So you gotta look out for that.” 

“Wow, that sounds wonderful.” 

“I got to dance with the rangers cause I go with them on payroll.” 

“There are a lot of cute boys in the rangers.” Miss Jess laughed. 

“Lots of cute boys other places too,” I said with a blush. 

“Not many around right now,” Mr. Jy said. 

“I’m gonna go see if I can find my brother,” I said then and found Jimmy down the street. I told him we had to talk and we rode out to our hideout. 
Benson. 

We rode over to the caves in Benson and we sat down inside. I felt safer seeing Jimmy’s gun. “What’s up sis?” Jimmy asked. 

“Alright so… Last night I was in town with Pa… And we heard Mr Lot shoutin’ at Jeff somewhere in the street. Somethin’ about him bein’ a good boy and stuff.” 

“Okay…” 

“So I started to get scared... Cause Pa warned us to be careful around Mr Lot and his friends, right?” 

“Yep, he sure did.” 

“Well so.... I didn’t like the idea of Jeff doin stuff for him… Anyway… It gets worse..” 

“What do you mean?” 

“Cause then I ran out of the saloon and looked ’round for Jeff.... But I couldn’t find him so I shouted for his name. Thenn… Millard shouted that Jeff was dead!!” 

“He didn’t!” 

“Yeah he did! But then today… I was talkin to Aspen and Miss Abi bout it….” 

“So is Jeffery ok?” 

“They said he just foolin me and that Aspen saw Jeff last night and he’s fine. But… I still don’t like it. And I mad at Millard. Cause he lied at me. So I gonna whip his cantankerous hide for lyin’. Till he says sorry.” 

“No fightin sis… you know ma and pa wont like it.” Jimmy chuckled. 

“I don’t care. He’s gonna get his butt whipped and I’m gonna put somethin in his bed and….” 

“No sis!! You will get in trouble for doing something to Millard. Just let it go, cause there is nothing we can do about it.” 

“I don’t WANNA let it go! He lied, Jimmy. He lied. And now Mr Jimmi Rubble is sayin that Mr Lot’s a good guy. And I won’t stand fer it!” 

“Sis, I ain’t letting you get in trouble for something Millard did… I know he lied, but everybody lies...you gonna whip everyone in town?” 

“Well if they all gonna tell lies about Jeff then YA!!” I folded my arms across my chest. 

“SIS! Don’t make me go tell ma and pa what you are up to! I am spose to look out fer ya...and I am going to.” 

“Yeah but... I gonna find out what’s goin on with Jeff, Jimmy. I swear it. And I gonna yell at Millard, even if I don’t do nothin’ bad to him.” 

“Well yeah, that’s okay… but don’t be tryin to fight Millard...he biggern you, and I would have to shoot him in tha butt if he tryin hurt ya.” 

“Well I know that but… It ain’t fair, dang it. They can’t just tease me to get a rise out of me cause I’m gonna go make a rise out of him.” 

“Well I know that, and no you ain’t...you gonna behave or I go get pa, and he make you behave...I don’t want my sister gettin into fights with other boys, that’s my job.” 

“That ain’t fair. I’m not just some girl who plays with dolls and cooks. I gonna stand up for what I believe in. And I don’t believe in tellin’ lies and risin’ people!!” I sighed.

“But sis...yore a girl...you spose to be nice and clean, and behave like girls spose to...now me, I a dirty ole boy who plays in dirt, shoots wild things and gets into fights.” 

“Ma told me I had to make you not get into fights. And to protect you. I’m the one who’s gotta…” I shook my head, starting to get upset. “I just wanna talk to Jeff!! I wanna make sure he okay.” 

“That’s fine sis, but leave Millard out of it...no sense in gettin into trouble over him...if we see him, then maybe I can shoot him in the butt.” 

“I don’t think he should joke bout that Jimmy, and neither does miss Abi.” 

“Then let Miss Abi take care of it...she is in charge of Millard...you know what ma and pa said about if they caught you fightin again.” 

“When was I fightin’ before???” 

“I dunno...but you know what ma and pa said...we gotta behave, or we not get to go out an play anymore.” Jimmy took aim and shot at one with his BB gun, but missed. “DAMN they are hard to hit.” 

“Alright let’s get outta here and see if we can go to the orphanage.” 

“Yeah, before we get covered in bat poop,” he said and we headed home. 

January 1, 1901

Bisbee.

Tonight, after convincing Pa to tell me a bedtime story, I followed him upstairs and curled into bed while he sat on the edge of it and leaned over to tell me about how he and ma first met. I grinned at Pa, but then got nervous when I heard movement downstairs and saw Shira run down to greet whoever was there. 

“So who was the first person I met, but Miss Pet at the Russ. She was feeding me dinner, when in walked the most beautiful woman I ever laid eyes on. Your ma.” Pa stopped then and patted me on the foot gently. “No worry dear, its just your ma coming home. Miss Pet introduced your ma and me to each other. I was selling that elixir stuff I told you about back then.” 

“Right... the rotgut stuff. What was it called, Daddy?” I asked, feeling a bit better. 

Pa thought about it for a while and then said, “It was called the Handy, Dandy, Smandy Mr. Boremans Wonder Tonic.” 

“That’s the silliest name ever! Can I put that in the interview daddy?” I giggled. 

“Sure sweetie. Though the only person to ever buy any of it was Miss Pet.” 

“Did it work?” 

“I don’t know munchkin, Miss Pet never bought anymore. Though I quit selling it soon after I moved to Tombstone. Your ma helped me to decide not to sell it anymore.” 

Ma walked upstairs then and grinned, leaning down to kiss pa on the forehead. “Did it work? It worked to confuse the heck out of people and made me laugh at him!” 

“Hi dear!” Pa greeted ma. 

“Hi Ma! Pa’s tellin’ me bout how ya met! How’d you get him to stop sellin’ that stuff?” I giggled, looking over at her. 

Ma chuckled and leaned against the wall, looking exhausted. “"Well, I convinced him to stop lyin’ to people and make an honest man out of himself. Told him he could do more and help people. So he became a deputy. Course that’s after he thought ’bout bein’ a lawyer first.” Ma winked at him. 

Pa kissed Ma and hugged her down onto the bed beside him. “Yeah love, tell our daughter about it.” 
“You were gonna be a lawyer pa?” I giggled, watching them both. I wondered if Jimmy had gone to sleep by now ‘cause he wasn’t doin’ more than just snoring. 

“Well yeah, I guess. Then I realized we needed lawmen who could be trusted more tan we needed lawyers,” Pa explained. 

“Mmhmm we sure did. And you’re pa’s the best one there is. Now why are you two still awake and why were there dishes left out in the living room?” Ma looked between us. 

I slipped under my covers to hide and said, “Shira did it.” 

“Ummm, I fed these two rugrats cookies and milk to get them to go to bed. Natalie wouldn’t stop begging, then she tag teamed me with Shira,” Pa told her. 

“They gave you the double-puppy-dog-eye trick huh? Very clever kiddo.” Ma grinned at me. 

“Yes they did… but Natalie deserved it… she stayed with Mr. Mack while I went to get paid at the jail with Lot and Shaun out in front of Kate’s Saloon,” Pa said. 

“Even though Millard shouted that Jeff was dead!!” I exclaimed and sat up straighter. “Who’d kill Jeffrey??” 

“I don’t think anyone killed Jeffery sweetie. Probably Millard just being Millard,” Pa said. 

“I gonna throw a rock near him next time I see him,” I muttered. 

“Now hon, your father’s right. Mill was probably just teasin’ with ya,” Ma said. 

“Now now… don't be throwing rocks at people Natalie.” Pa looked at me. 

“But ma... Mr Lot and some bad guy was out there and they was talkin about Jeff and yellin’ at him and…” 

“Jeffrey does little jobs for Mr Lot with the courthouse. I’m sure that’s all it was sweetie,” Ma said. 

I sighed and crawled in under the covers, looking between them. “Well make sure he’s okay tomorrow. I guess I sleep now. Thanks for tellin’ me that story pa.” 

“Goodnight sweetheart. Sleep well,” Ma kissed me on the forehead and tucked me in, and then went to kiss Jimmy’s forehead too. “I love you both very much.” 

“You’re welcome munchkin. I will I promise. You sleep tight and don’t let the bedbugs bite,” Pa pet Shira and kissed me before going with Ma to their room. I curled up and fell fast asleep. 

Saturday, January 2, 2016

December 30, 1900

Tombstone. 

I walked into town and waved to Mr. Chris who was talking with some people and ma in front of the saloon tonight. A man stood up and leaned against the post, letting me take his seat. “Thanks Mister,” I said to him. 

“Hey young lady. How are you?” Mr. Chris asked. 

Ma kept talking to Mr. Lot and then finally turned over to me and said, “Hey there kiddo.” 

“Any luck, Trin?” Mr. Chris asked. 

“He says he would barely give me the time of day. Pretty sure he doesn’t care enough about me to threaten me,” Ma said. 

“Good ol Lot. You count on not counting on him.” Mr. Chris chuckled. 

“So polite.” The man who gave me his seat chuckled. “So who’s next? Any clues?” 

Ma got frustrated with talkin’ bout things though and went into the saloon to get a drink while I sat outside with Mr. Chris. I looked up at the man and asked, “So um.... what’s your name mister?” 

“Dennis, Dennis Spark,” he said. “And you? Do you have a name? Starts with a B, right?” 

“I’m Natalie.... my ma in there is Trin.” 

“Your mom is a good gal.” Mr. Dennis said. “Nice to meet you, Natalie.” 

“Uh huh, she the best. My pa is Mr Thomas. He’s a deputy. And I... wait.... You a good guy mister?” I looked at him, not sure I could trust him. 

“Now what would make you think I’m a bad guy?” 

“Well I just makin’ sure cause... ma and pa have had a rough Christmas and I not s’posed to talk to bad people.” 

“I ain’t all that bad. I don’t break the law if that’s what you mean by bad.” Mr. Dennis laughed. 

“Well that’s all that matters I guess.. I just lookin’ out for my ma and pa and little brother. I know it ain’t always safe ’round here.” 
“I could understand that much. Mind if I take a seat?” Mr. Dennis asked and pointed to the empty chair. “Mind if I take a seat?” 

“Sure you can sit. Hi ma! Get yer drink?” I asked as Ma came back out. 

“All them folks running back ’n forth...Busy day?” Mr. Dennis asked. 

“Sure did. And yeah, Dennis you could say that.” Ma smiled and tipped her flask to me. 

“Excuse me Kris, I am wondering if i can shoot you,” Mr. Lot said loudly then. 

“Kiddo, maybe you should head inside..” Ma looked from Mr. Dennis to me. 

“But maaaa….” I frowned, looking up at her. 

“Lot’s busy again…” Mr. Dennis chuckled and pushed himself to his feet. 

As Mr. Dennis was walking away I heard him yell, “Bit rude not to speak you know!” 

“Hey Ma did I tell you Mr Kris got me a doll for Christmas?” I giggled and told Ma. 

“He did huh? What’s that, kiddo?” 

“It’s a reindeer moosey thingy! Not sure what to name it.”

“Alright kiddo, I’m gonna keep looking around. See you at home, sweetie,” Ma said and hugged me as she walked down the street.